i have a little tutu - tiny, tiny - that i made - it's the cutest thing you've ever laid eyes on - as far as clothes go - it's an antique white color - with chocolate brown ribbon - i've started adding light pink pearls in random places on the skirt. i have a pink headband with this amazing antique feather that get's pinned to it - some beautiful photography props have been ordered and should be here any day - they are all for my little niece - Lauren Jennifer - who I am so ready to welcome into my life. maybe it would have been easier for me if i would have known it was a little girl - maybe it wouldn't have been - i don't know - that's life - almost everything is uncertain - there is no way i can't love her with my whole heart. i think i feel better too - because adam and i finally have a plan - that makes sense to us... more on that later - but for now - the props can't get here soon enough - so i can show my niece off to all of you.