so... here's an update on our life... trying to have a baby.
we tried with our donor for a few months - it didn't work. it was really sad. i think that after all we've been through we were both really hoping it would happen right away. since so many of my friends IRL read my blog - an update is much needed. so - since we aren't doing IVF - and Adam still doesn't feel well - we decided it would be best to go back to the doctor to get him on some medication. We went to a new urologist. after testing adam's testosterone - he told us it was in "normal range" and we were more than shocked so we decided that we should do another SA (semen analysis). that day b man's mom was running late (with more than good reason) so i ran out of the house without grabbing our "binder" (yes we have a freakin' binder with our IF) - we got to the doctors office & he explained that there should be no reason we can't have a child - yes - adam's sperm isn't the best - but that we should try. i lost my shit. i was crying. i couldn't believe it. i asked for a copy of the SA. We brought it home - it's the worst SA that Adam has had to date. The doctor doesn't know what the fuck he's talking about. I'm not kidding. I think it's difficult for anyone that hasn't gone through IF to understand the devastation of this. So... we decided that we'd go to my doctor to see if there is anything that we can do - Adam had a bunch of autoimmune testing done - and now he has to go see a specialist. meanwhile - we decided that we're going to do IUI with our donor at a clinic in town. Fast forward to friday - i went to Chicago to see some really amazing friends - and we're having cocktails & i ask if they want to see the childhood picture of our donor - they both said yes. i login through my phone - guess what? he retired.
not kidding.
we have to start all over. this is the song that does not end. it just goes on and on my friends.
we're exhausted. right now - we're taking a deep breath.
so there you have it - for all of you that know me IRL - that wanted to know.
Sending love to you. I think it sounds like it it is time to find an entire new medical team for both you!!!
ReplyDeleteOh sweet mercy... that is a lot of disappointment in a short amount of time :( I am thinking of you guys and sending you big hugs!! xo
ReplyDeleteUgh.. really? I just read another blog about a woman's donor retiring too. This is just oo much, it's all just too much.
ReplyDeleteI say, get another semen analysis test done with a new urologist and find better Drs to be on your team!!
I am just so sorry....
My heart is breaking for you. Wish you could catch a freaking break. Love you.
ReplyDeleteSending my love to you guys. Call if you need anything. I mean it.
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