i've been busy

b man's mom (the little guy i watch) loves to calls or text during the day and find out how her little guy is doing. he's running around now and in 2.2 he can be in the dog food, the water dish, the toilet & have all the tupperware out in the kitchen. so when she calls now sometimes - i can't answer or i say how busy we are. during his naps i have been busy editing all the cute little photography jobs i've been doing but little does she know i've been busy capturing these amazing little moments for her holiday gift.



he's finally been happy, healthy & taking naps - which means - he's been the biggest delight in my side. would you just look at those teeth?



adam stayed home on wednesday with us. the moments he is with him - my heart just breaks - adam is such a natural. yesterday the house was filled with laughter as the two of them played. he is so hands on. i can not wait until he can become the father of our children.

happy thanksgiving all.... today - i'm so thankful for all of the wonderful comments and support that i have received from my blog readers!

update

so... here's an update on our life... trying to have a baby.

we tried with our donor for a few months - it didn't work. it was really sad. i think that after all we've been through we were both really hoping it would happen right away. since so many of my friends IRL read my blog - an update is much needed. so - since we aren't doing IVF - and Adam still doesn't feel well - we decided it would be best to go back to the doctor to get him on some medication. We went to a new urologist. after testing adam's testosterone - he told us it was in "normal range" and we were more than shocked so we decided that we should do another SA (semen analysis). that day b man's mom was running late (with more than good reason) so i ran out of the house without grabbing our "binder" (yes we have a freakin' binder with our IF) - we got to the doctors office & he explained that there should be no reason we can't have a child - yes - adam's sperm isn't the best - but that we should try. i lost my shit. i was crying. i couldn't believe it. i asked for a copy of the SA. We brought it home - it's the worst SA that Adam has had to date. The doctor doesn't know what the fuck he's talking about. I'm not kidding. I think it's difficult for anyone that hasn't gone through IF to understand the devastation of this. So... we decided that we'd go to my doctor to see if there is anything that we can do - Adam had a bunch of autoimmune testing done - and now he has to go see a specialist. meanwhile - we decided that we're going to do IUI with our donor at a clinic in town. Fast forward to friday - i went to Chicago to see some really amazing friends - and we're having cocktails & i ask if they want to see the childhood picture of our donor - they both said yes. i login through my phone - guess what? he retired.

not kidding.

we have to start all over. this is the song that does not end. it just goes on and on my friends.

we're exhausted. right now - we're taking a deep breath.

so there you have it - for all of you that know me IRL - that wanted to know.